Letting go
Recently my husband and I decided to sell our home. It’s not just any home but one that has wrapped itself around my heart and won’t seem to let go. I love this house. It is everything I could have asked for and more of what I didn’t know I wanted in a home.
Everyone that enters speaks to its great energy and welcoming feel. I’m not just saying that. Really, EVERYONE says it and now that it is for sale and about to exit my life, I’d really like them to stop:)
See, I am totally connected to this structure. I feel like a part of it. And so letting it go feels like letting go of a HUGE part of ME. Aggh. I really hate the way that sounds because at the end of the day it is a thing, right? Well, trying to let go of this THING has really turned my life upside down.
And it got me thinking…
What am I doing arguing with life’s plan for me? The plan is to move on. To another city that calls to us. And we can’t take the house with us. (I tried) So by holding on to the house I am actually stalling the flow of events that is meant to unfold. And I realized, after much work, that by letting go of this lover I call a house, I am actually opening up the door to the next chapter of my life.
This is my truth right now. I have to trust that although this hurts, it is for a greater good. For progress and growth that I am not privy to at the moment.
That got me thinking some more…
What else am I resisting letting go of that is stalling my progress and growth? Hmmm, what a good question. People, projects, commitments, beliefs, roles, habits, grudges, etc. It all started to bubble over when I got to answering that question.
So my wish for you is to ask yourself what you deserve to let go of. Answer it. Then let go. It feels so good.
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August 21, 2008 at 1:00 pm
Hi Jennifer! I just looked at the photos of your awesome home. Its just the kind of house I would love to own. Of course I would have to move to Salem and that is out of the question at this point in time.
I wish you all the best in selling it and whomever purchases it, will be one lucky person!
August 21, 2008 at 2:48 pm
Jennifer,
I so totally get this! I sold a house a few years ago that was, well, perfect in just about every way for me. What I found instead was three other things that fit much more perfectly in my life – a fantastic job opportunity, a brand new relationship, and a new home that didn’t include a daily commute of more than five minutes. What I thought I valued in the house was transferable to a whole new set of great, awesome things.
The good thing is that years from now, you’ll be able to look back on your house and remember it fondly. The house will always be with you, even though you might not be with the house.
It’s a new chapter of your life, just as much as this is a new moment of right now.
Heartbroken and excited for you!
Joey
May 27, 2009 at 1:47 am
Jennifer, I can feel your pain! I love my house too and it is my sanctuary. But we would love to move someplace warmer but I just can’t seem to let go and not sure I want to. I’m getting mixed signals from the Universe..or maybe I’m just jacking them up in my head
Show me the way sister! Best of luck.
Anne